http://www.aeonity.com/end-of The 10 most recent public blogs by end-of Sun, 07 Sep 2008 05:19:36 -0500 Aeonity Blog v2 http://www.aeonity.com/end-of/blog/60750 I drift; afloat upon the tides of time and emotion; the waves of my life: a restless sea uneasy and ever shifting beneath me. only glimpses, in sunless moments, reveal the depth; the weight; the darkness, below the surface upon which I ride, balancing so precariously - it beckons, it threatens to overwhelm; to pull me in and under. the instants of shaken resolve and loneliness cast me close to the edge, where I view in dizzying clarity the fathoms-deep despair awaiting and reel back from the drop, the light in me refusing to be extinguished - my saving grace. adrift from all anchorage save for that within myself; I sail on over the deep, endless grey ocean - alone. http://www.aeonity.com/end-of/blog/60750 http://www.aeonity.com/end-of/75 Wed, 18 Jun 2008 00:24:00 -0500 http://www.aeonity.com/end-of/blog/60165 I wish I were wiser. three days later I put away my shoes and my expectations after that I stop looking at all the photographs and when that's done slowly I accept that it's really over. one of these days, I'll learn but until then I'll probably let me down. the dress hangs on the closet door; I expect no more from it. the chaos of good times made irrelevant by the reality I face. I wish there were more to me than wishing my life is one big good intention left unmanifest. http://www.aeonity.com/end-of/blog/60165 http://www.aeonity.com/end-of/74 Sun, 08 Jun 2008 20:07:41 -0500 http://www.aeonity.com/end-of/blog/59328 a sanctuary lost. no longer can I stand alone. there is no comfort in solitude. my voice, once the most steadying sound in my world, no longer speaks to me. there is no shelter left for me, nor in me. I seek respite in you. turn me not away. http://www.aeonity.com/end-of/blog/59328 http://www.aeonity.com/end-of/73 Thu, 22 May 2008 21:42:51 -0500 http://www.aeonity.com/end-of/blog/58546 (inhale) tires on asphalt (exhale) wind through leaves night pulse try to be still calm the sounds echoing streets night breathes and sings to me the city's lullaby my heartbeat (breathe in) traffic slows (breathe out) darkness claims http://www.aeonity.com/end-of/blog/58546 http://www.aeonity.com/end-of/72 Sun, 11 May 2008 23:48:33 -0500 http://www.aeonity.com/end-of/blog/57986 a sad condition: I hide to hold out into each singular constant I dive, to drown I dive to be saved I disappear to end it all and to make you notice I am gone. but if any do, none speak - so I dive edge over edge hoping you will witness my fall catch me before impact. a sad condition indeed. http://www.aeonity.com/end-of/blog/57986 http://www.aeonity.com/end-of/71 Mon, 28 Apr 2008 21:43:08 -0500 http://www.aeonity.com/end-of/blog/57658 I am sorrowful because you are so beautiful but I have no words left for you my eyes, sick with grace and fairness, long for the plain and ordinary there are no love songs left in me you will fade away in silence. http://www.aeonity.com/end-of/blog/57658 http://www.aeonity.com/end-of/70 Sat, 19 Apr 2008 19:51:31 -0500 http://www.aeonity.com/end-of/blog/57428 this is my life. you were a dream. I hated waking from you. I breathe; I move. but sleep eludes me. and all my beautiful words desert me. http://www.aeonity.com/end-of/blog/57428 http://www.aeonity.com/end-of/69 Sun, 13 Apr 2008 18:45:19 -0500 http://www.aeonity.com/end-of/blog/56841 you are too beautiful to say goodbye to. wait for me, and miss me, darling, because I am always coming back. http://www.aeonity.com/end-of/blog/56841 http://www.aeonity.com/end-of/68 Fri, 28 Mar 2008 23:13:07 -0500 http://www.aeonity.com/end-of/blog/56057 I fear this beautiful thing has been scarred by desire. your depths beckon. heedless of peril, I smile - and in; down, down, I dive. we die younger every day. invincible - clocks running backwards to save us. and your cool waters so inviting, ready to pull me in. I drink not for fear that I should drown. and as your tide calls, I resist throwing myself from the rocks - this time - I will make you come to me. I will wait for the rain to feel you on my skin instead of diving in. http://www.aeonity.com/end-of/blog/56057 http://www.aeonity.com/end-of/67 Thu, 06 Mar 2008 22:41:11 -0600 http://www.aeonity.com/end-of/blog/55552 Forget me, life: I'm not worth living. I refuse to accept the motions of time. The hands of the clock go round still, ticking; but here inside me shadows are motionless. Forget me, world, 'cause I'm not moving. I won't follow you down into the dark. You go on without me - out into the endless field of continuum - and I'll just stay here. Forget me, time. I will not limp forward. More pain in the finite than I can contain. In loving and in living; in losing and letting go - in death, ressurection: indefinite agony. So I won't. So forget me. http://www.aeonity.com/end-of/blog/55552 http://www.aeonity.com/end-of/66 Sun, 24 Feb 2008 21:33:42 -0600